This is the final turning point. When everything she gained is lost, Mattie Mae Albright has to decide whether there is freedom in the dark or love for those who remain. This is what that sounds like. Start reading from Chapter One →
Lyrics
Lyrics by Justin Zimmer, music generated by Suno.com (Suno Playlist)
Content note: This song contains themes of suicidal ideation.
[intro]
(oh-ah-oh, oh-ah-oh)
[verse 1]
I hear them calling
From that house whence none return
It’s all my fault
What’s left here for me now?
If I follow
I see freedom in the dark
[breakdown]
I have a choice
I can make it right
If I descend,
I can see them all again.
[chorus]
I don’t know
what to do
don’t wanna be alone here now
I’ll go there
Won’t let them
dwell alone in darkness
All this pain
It won’t end
Is there freedom in the dark?
[post-chorus]
(oh-ah-oh, oh-ah-oh)
(I see freedom in the dark)
[bridge][call and response]
Go where there’s no pain (no joy)
Where there’s no despair (no hope)
No hate (no love)
They wait for me there
[whispered] (Your mother waits at home)
[break]
[verse 2]
I see your face
it’s ashen and unclean
I’m not there,
Who’s left to hold you now?
If I leave
who’ll be the one to bury you?
[breakdown]
You give me so much,
and ask for nothing
If I die here now
You’ll be the one to bury me
[chorus]
a casket
and church bells
all black suits and black dresses
Each stranger
Handing out
insincere condolences
All your love
Forsaken
For my freedom in the dark
[verse 3]
In my grief
I took your love for granted,
but now I see
no matter how this hurts me
I can’t leave you
alone in the winter of life
[breakdown]
Mama, I’m coming
Home now, I’m running
away from the dark
I won’t let you bury me!
[chorus]
I’ll come home
stay with you
we’ll let the whole world burn
I don’t care
I want to
Hold you til the end of days
Oh Mama
I’m coming
I see no freedom in the dark!
[bass drop]
(oh-ah-oh, oh-ah-oh)
[slow outro]
(oh-ah-oh, oh-ah-oh)
I won’t let you worry
won’t let you be alone
I won’t let you
bury me
(I see no freedom in the dark.)
